im a fuckin commie

jrizzle @ 2006-02-24T19:25:00

2006-02-25T00:25:46Z

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This is my last update....EVER

2006-01-26T18:22:46Z

LOLZ0RZ!!!!!1!!X!!!@!!ONE!!!!!

Im not using this to update ever again. I know i dont update hardly ever to begin with, but i decided i just wont ever do it again. Ill just use to fuck with people on message boards. So if youve been holding your breath for me to update, this is the last time.

Sorry. Maybe ill make use of the myspace blog....probably not.

The past while

2005-12-02T16:53:32Z

SO things have been pretty crazy the last couple of monts. I have made some real good friends, and they always show me a good time. I started playing WoW and im addicted, i think i had a disk in my back slip from playing that game. other than that ive been going to class, or trying to, and trying to get by.

Thanksgiving break was pretty bad ass. I got to spend some time with all my friends from stafford, and i really needed that. I really regret not being able to have partied more with those guys. Also, i went up to see my dad for thanksgiving and that was real cool. I met my sister that i didnt know i had, and got to spend some good quality time with the gramps. Laura came with and that meant a lot to me. I really wanted her to meet my family, especially my grandpa, because i dont know how much time he has left.

Also, right before the break ended i went to see the most amazing band to ever grace the eart....Against Me! It was so unbelievable. I cant even explain how much energy they have live. It was the most ridiculous experience of my life. laura and i were right up against the barrier and it was great. During the last song of their encore which happened to be "We laugh at danger and break all the rules" i climbed on stage and sand along with Andrew. I couldnt believe i was actually touching him...ahhh. and then i stage dived and the whole band except for james followed. after the show i had a talk with Warren and its a conversation ill never forget. AHHHH...i have a sometimes homosexual love for that band.

I saw Sarja at the show to, it was really nice running into her and sharing all of that with her.

if anyone ever gets the chance to see against me! take it. you will not be disapointed.

Smile fuckface

2005-10-20T21:35:24Z

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Tom Delays Mugshot

i hope he rots in prison....

All donne go home

2005-10-03T15:42:05Z

jrizzle @ 2005-09-07T02:09:00

2005-09-07T06:12:16Z

ohh man....

im pretty pissed. someone is spreadin rumors about me cheating on laura. I dont even know these fucks well enough for fucking rumors. Ive known these people less than two weeks and they are already spreading fuckin rumors.

It makes me look bad. If you have questions about my personal business you ask me and ill tell you, but dont fuckin spread rumors and shit.

i never have, and i never will cheat on laura. EVER.

and if you find that so hard to believe than dont fuckin talk to me...i dont care, just shut the fuck up

laura-birthday-battles

2005-07-30T08:35:00Z

alright..where to start?

laura came down about two weeks ago and i had a blast. our relationship has been on the rocks for a while but when she came out, it was great. i was so happy being with her, and holding her...it was just the best feeling ive had in a long time. we went to sakura for midnight sushi, got really drunk on johns birthday ( a little too drunk, i might add ) saw charlie and the chocolate factory, went shopping, and best of all spent a lot of time holding each other. it was really awesome. i love her a lot.

my birthday was tonigh...or last night how ever you look at it. it was an amazing birthday...one for the books. i didnt drink, having learned my lesson from johns birthday. i was in bed untill about 4 or so, and i got in the shower. my mom came home and made me ribs for dinner and it was really goog. then we had cake and i opened presents. i got a 75 dollar gift certificate from my sister, a warped tour ticket from my brother ( which by the way, i have to ditch work to go to ) i got a wireless mouse for my computer, a case for my computer, and a freakin psp. the psp wins the prize of best gift by far. it rocks so hard. im going to get a lot of use out of it. and i got the product replacement plan on it...so if anything goes wrong, im covered. ha, fuck city advantage..best buy is better. ( thats kind of an inside thing youd only ever think about if you work at circuit city, or best buy ) i really like it. and ive been needing a mouse so bad so thats cool. and i can buy clothes with the gift card...or whatever i want. and i get to go to warped tour with the battles ( which brings me to my next topic )

tonight allan, phil, and myself went to sakura for midnight sushi. it was one hell of a time. we listened to some postal service on the ride there and they were actually playing it when we got there..so it was pretty cool. the sushi was good and we tried some weird stuff and that was cool too. it was just a kick ass experiance. sushi...its so good. i get a euphoric feeling when i eat it. me and the battles were all talking about how we felt high after we ate. it was awesome. then we walked back to the car...stopped shortly by a drunk kid phil worked with, and rocked out to taking back sunday on the way home....it was an excellent way to top off an excellent day ( that rhymed )

OHHHHHHHH! i almost forgot. Laura bought me some ben sherman shoes, some plaid van slip ons, a dasboard shirt, and a john lennon shirt for my birthday. which were also kick ass gifts. that girl spoils me sometimes...i love her.

jrizzle @ 2005-07-02T03:12:00

2005-07-02T08:11:36Z

im making a mix cd with a bunch of rockin songs on it...

if you have any suggestions let me know.

i want good rockin songs. fast...and a bit hard.

already on is -

Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorne Heights

To the world - Strike Anywhere

Choke on this - Senses Fail

what else?

so um...heres what i did in stafford?

2005-06-20T05:17:02Z

so...

i got in to town and i hung out with knate a few times we partied..and played halo. good times were had by all....very good times. i even got to play half life 2 on knates super computer with a plasma screen tv.

then...i dont remember what i did. i hung out with laura and we went to dinners and such...that was cool. i had an amazing time with her. even though we broke it off...or she broke it off, i still had a lot of fun. i guess it will be nice to figure out what we want before college starts. i mean we have been together 3 and a half years, so how do you really know if thats what you want? i guess its a good thing, and if were meant to be then well get back together. onto a lighter note...we went to kings dominion and i had one of the best times of my life. she knows how to have a good time. she kept pretending i was her retarded brother named benji gill...ha ha. i dont know...you had to be there. but we had a lot of fun...she made these two and a half weeks the best of my life. we did a lot of other stuff that im too lazy to put in but its late...those who know me well...will hear the stories im sure.

colin colin colin...we hung out and had a blast....i really like hangin with him...he knows how to have a good time. we went swimming got drunk...did other stuff...it just complemented my good time.

manchild and i hung out a few times...not as much as i would have liked, but i always have a good time with him. hes like a brother to me, and i enjoy the times we hang out cause we can talk. i can talk to him like no one else. he knows everything that goes on...and dude, i never got to send a song out to you...so this entry, its for you.

rob whos last name i dont know and dates melissa...you are a good guy. im glad we hung out once or twice...it was cool i liked it. a lot. thanks for the frosty.

this has become me mentioning what i did with certain people and such...and it shall continue

what else?

graduation was lame...it was depressing and i felt like i should have been a part of it....ohh well.

i felt like this was a good way to say goodbye to good friends from the past...i got to hang out with everyone i felt i wanted too.

chris evans...you are the man. jammin was fun, and the shirts were awesome...too bad we didnt play that show. and im always going to remember you when you go off to florida...ha ha "Florida...Florida!!! My name is Florida!" i love family guy.

Seth...thanks for the shorts..and the witty remarks....i enjoy partying with you.

and then there was my last night. it was one hell of a night. Laura and i were going to stay in and drink...but i got a call from someone...i dont remember who, but they called and told us to come to eds...i got really smashed and had a ton of fun. Chris, Kevin, Tubbs, Bobby, Mike, Ed, Albert, Laura, and Megan...you made that a night i wont soon forget. it wasnt so much that things were crazy or anything...just i missed you guys and im glad we went back to the old days. it was a good way to end my stay in stafford...and im not ever going to forget it. ha ha ha albert...youre a good guy.

i guess thats it...im sure i left some stuff out like "can i get a collective "i hate niggers"" or the whole raping if your killing thing...and much much more. but if you feel like adding...you can comment with your additions.

ill catch stafford cool cats on the flipside

one of those songs were you just write exactly how you feel

2005-06-12T07:18:19Z

its 3 but i cant sleep
and you are just a flight of stairs away
i cant believe im here
feeling the way i do
its almost like i cant feel
the way i did about you
you broke my heart in half
thats what you did when you cheated
thats what you did when you stopped caring

its almost been a year
since i left so maybe im to blame
i cant help but take
responsibility for my pain
you sleep so softly
all i do is interupt
all i do is wake you up, and irritate you

i wish there was something i could say
i wish there was something i could do
not so much so wed be back together
but more for you to feel how i do
its not regret it more a sorrow
that i couldnt be what you wanted me to
that i couldnt make you happy
that i walked out on you

everything i do is wrong
you dont even act like we dated
it was 3 and a half fuckin years
you dont act like it meant a thing at all
its always me in the wrong
its always me making you upset
well why dont you think of how i feel

i just want someone to comfort me
everyone acts like its nothing
everyone just says it happens
well it doesnt happen to us
how do you not care anymore?
how do you just blow me off like you do?

i wish that we could be friends
i wish the site of you didnt make me die inside
i wish i could find someone else
i wish i just didnt feel like shit
i just want to know
what this means and how i should be

i guess im fading out
i guess i should just go back home
i guess i never meant that much

i wish i did something to make you run away
i wish i did something to make you feel my pain

so.

2005-06-09T16:47:08Z

so, im still at lauras...and as odd as it is to say i am having fun.

i guess i kind of look at it like it might be the last time i get to spend time with her like this so i might as well make the most of it.

im not really looking forward to being a lonely whiney loser...but things happen i guess.

i really love laura more than anything in the world, and this is going to be extremely hard, but i want her to be happy...and if it makes her happy then i guess that makes me feel a little better.

it just doesnt feel real...like its a dream. maybe in the future, like in college things will change and well get back together...maybe not.

i really hope we do get back together in college...ive got plans with that girl.

well, im doing ok right now. its hard but i feel like im ok.

i love her a lot, and she is my best friend. i hope that doesnt change.

ohh yeah...who wants to party while im in town? i dont think a whole lot of stafford kids still read this, but i was thinking im here for about 11 more days...so if you want to hang out, just call me.

446-1082

well,

2005-06-07T03:00:44Z

well, things have been pretty good up here in stafford. things between me and laura were good for the first few days...but i think things have caught up with us.

i love her a lot...but i dont think she likes having me around this much. i mean, i try not to let things get to me..but they do sometimes and she gets so mad about it. i mean, i cant help feeling the way i do about certain things. she should be happy ive held up as well as i have. but she gets so angry at little things and i know it ties into a bigger picture.

i knew coming up here would make me feel worse about our situation...but it was so good for the first few days, that i wasnt worried about the rest of the summer. i knew we were going to get through it. but now, when things like this happen i worry again.

i just wish she knew how hard this is. and how hard im trying for her. and how much i love her. and how i mean good with everything i do.

its all for her...always for her.

i just wish she could see things like i see them. i dont know what shes feeling, because everytime she tells me, i feel like shes leaving something out.

i cant really explain how im feeling about it.

theres still 1 hour left in the day to make it up to her. to make her forget about the bad time. i think i try to hard sometimes.

yep

2005-05-28T16:45:49Z

im at work...and i just thought i would come back and tell laura something.

laura, i love you.

i know...i know

2005-05-25T23:46:14Z

ok, i know everyone is sick of my bitching, but here i go again.

i just cant help but wonder why this is more important than us. Everyone goes through that, and the only thing that seperates it is love. I went through it, and i asked myself what was more important. You? or "getting it out of my system". I dont need to get it out of my system because i know i love you, and since i love you i dont need to experiance other things. You are all i need. I wont cheat on you down the road because i didnt see other people. I LOVE YOU. My love for you is more important than my fear. I put this before anything else, and i dont want to risk losing you in the long run. I am commited to this, and to you. I just dont think its fair to put our relationship through this. Its natural feeling, youll get it when were married. If you give in now, it might make it harder not to give in then.

its kind of like alcaholics...They stay sober for a long time, and its hard. but one binge to "get it out of their system" never works. its just a time when they get weak and excuse to make it sound better.

You are stronger than that...we are stronger than that.

I am scared too, but i love you and that makes me feel comfort. I know the distance has been tough, but we can make it.

You know i dont want to make this hard for you...i just want whas best for us.

i love you and dont get mad.

whoa

2005-05-24T16:29:44Z

so alot of things have changed within the last year...

a year ago today i thought id be able to graduate with my friends and have an easier time getting started with college....but im in alabama and im trying to go to radford so its a bit tough...

a year ago today i thought laura and i would still be together. i had so many plans and i think about our future every day...but now were on a "break" and i cant help but worry.

i think maybe me staying in alabama was a good thing though because it gave me a lot of time to figure out what im all about...it helped me realize what i want to do in life...it helped me realize how extremely lucky i am to have laura...it made me realize i shouldnt take things for granted, because even a phone call relationship with her is better than anything i could ever have with someone else.

ive really come to appreciate what i have with laura recently...i mean i always have loved her and cared about her...i guess you just have to stop and look at things from the out side to really appreciate what you have sometimes..

laura im sorry i havent been the best boyfriend...but i love you, and whenever youre ready to work this out ill be here.

it hurts knowing i wont graduate with friends...it hurts knowing ill probably never see some of them again...it hurts to see that none of my good friends really talk anymore...and it hurts knowing i cant say that laura and i are together...but you have to roll with it.

it will all work out, and we will both be happy

im sorryr

feeling sorry for myself...`

2005-05-24T00:34:27Z

what happened to people telling you what you want to hear?

what happened to people saying "dont worry...you and laura will get back together, you two were made for each other"

it just doesnt happen like that anymore.

nowadays im too clingy...and i say i love you too much...and i try too hard to not let it die.

maybe im too in love.

maybe when i make a promise, i mean it.

maybe im not as weak as you.

maybe i know it could work if you let it.

maybe i know we dont need other people to make this work.

jrizzle @ 2005-05-23T16:33:00

2005-05-23T21:38:50Z

so i got my mac today...its bitchin.

laura and i are doing good...if you still consider us in that way. we still talk and i cant wait to see her.

i need a p2p software that works on mac. any suggestions? yeah...i dont have a whole lot to say.

every time i think abought laura my eyes water. every time i tell her that i love her...it hurts more.

i try not to be a whiney bitch...but sometimes i cant help it.

its so nice to have a computer again....anyone want to go to a coffee shop with me and act cool with our wireless internet connections. i would feel so cool.

well i think im going to mess around with garage band some more...

i love laura this much.

wow

2005-05-21T21:55:25Z

man...i feel really low right now

laura and i are going through some stuff. pretty much shes going through the whole "weve been together for 3 and a half years and im only 18" thing. Im so scared that im going to lose her for good, and its got me acting so weird.

im trying so hard to show her that i love her, and to make things better...but i just keep pushing her away.

i wish i never moved to alabama, so things between her and i would be good.

i cant call her because i dont have my cell and i just feel lost.

i feel so helpless

ive been such a mess these last few days...

the worst part is, i get the feeling that theres nothing i can do to keep from losing her...

i get the feeling that this is it...and i think thats why ive been so weird

i love laura and i hope were together forever

Hey Bitches

2005-05-13T06:55:58Z

You know, I just heard Dave Chapelle is missing somewhere in South Africa in a mental hospital. The word on the street is that there wont be a third season of Chapelle's Show. That is so lame.

So, I wrote a song. I know you're so desperate to read it, seeing as how all my songs are so amazing. Ill post it towards the end.

I'm going to miss high school. I know i dont like thompson and all...but im going to miss it. I've met some cool people this year, and i don't know if ill see some of them after i graduate, so it going to be weird.

Also, im trying to cope with growing up. This is the last year i can dick off. After i graduate, its college. I cant mess up in college. No more messin around. Gayyyyyyyyyyyy.

So, i havent updated in a while. I think we all know why.

Cause im too cool and shit.

It's almost 2 o' clock so i better post the song and get out of here.

If there is anything you want to know, ask. If you want to hang out, say so.

Ohh, i almost forgot...I'll be in stafford from June 11th to the 17th.

jrizzle @ 2005-05-06T19:56:00

2005-05-07T01:06:29Z

im at work...im eating a realy old nerds rope...and drinking a really gross coke...but work is alright.

i need a break...i just hate school...and work...and i need to just have fun.

i hate scheduled things....im in need of some spontaneaty..im not sure how to spell that...but you get the point.

i watched the oc for 2 hours last night...im a loser...post some love, cause i need it.

i just told andy that he could do anything with laura...just so long as the penis doesnt penatrate the vagina...and i hope he isnt taking me seriously.

ok...breaks over...see you guys later.

ohh man

2005-05-01T03:55:48Z

ohh man...i feel like im dying.

there was a thunderstorm last night...and my power went out...so my computer went into sleep mode or some shit to protect my files...so now i cant use it...fuck. i have to wait til monday so i can bring it up to cc and mike can look at it. but i feel like i have NOTHING to do..its so gay.

so i almost got fired today. i was supposed to work til 10...but john is getting deployed...and this was the only night we could all really get together...so i told them i needed to leave at five and i kind of got into an argument with the head manager....

so i feel weird...like laura doesnt like talking to me or something....i think she is upset or something and it makes me feel weird. i dont know what it is.

so i guess thats it...im glad i work all day tomorow, otherwise id kill myself cause i cant use my computer..

fuck man...i feel so overwhelmed about college and shit...i dont know.

you want a revolution?

2005-04-25T20:37:11Z

So, tonight was cool...then gay...so i guess that means it was ok.

I went to chuckys before work, and met lucy to talk about hanging out after work...and she brought me ice cream from ben and jerrys...so that was cool. I had chuckys and ben and jerrys...

then i worked from 5 to 10....i hate john so much.

Then i got off work and hung out with lucy and joseph. We talked a good deal of politics...and just about life in general. When it came time for us to leave i had lucy drive me back to my car....then it wouldnt start cause i left the lights on....so that was super lame..and then john came and jumped me...he drove 20 minutes just for me.

so tonight was cool. i like meeting and hanging out with new people. Lucy and Joseph are both cool kids.

im really tired. really.

Im going to Radford. Ill be close to Laura. I love Laura.

thats all i guess. Im Out bitch.

Long time comin...

2005-04-08T06:22:17Z

Whats up kids, I know you missed me. Well, id like to say ive been busy and thats why i havent updated...but then i would be lying. I went to Stafford a few weeks ago, which was pretty rad. I saw a lot of people ive been wanting to hang out with. And then laura came down with me and we hung out for quite a while. So its been nice.

Right now im just waiting for college decisions....I got into Radford..yay....but i didnt get into Cnu....ohh well

I saw rise against last week...it was amazing.

I bought a new guitar...Its an Epiphone Les Paul. I really like it.

Ive been doing a lot of thinking about life lately...I just hope im remembered for helping people. I hope people who knew me when im gone, think about me and remember me for always trying to help those in need. Too bad i missed the 60's or id be a revolutionary.

I hung out with john and phil today...went to Journeys. Which brings me to a new subject. Should i get a job a journeys? im not sure what i want to do. It would be a cooler job for sure...but i dont know.

I got a dog...Its a beagle hound. 2 and a half months old.

Laura bought me a book called "youre being lied too" its about media distortions, government cover-ups and such. It goes in depth to present all the facts on things and i like that.

Ive been listening to a lot of music lately, it reminds me of the old me. I think i got out of whatever slump i was in. I think im finally back to my old self and it feels good. I just realized its all about being happy.

Ill be posting more, cause i know you guys want it. Ill also be posting pictures of Spring break...of the dog and such.

Im going to go...I have school, work, and a late movie tomorow. Sounds fun, i knoww.

Peace-Love-Unity

Its late.

2005-02-05T09:48:43Z

It is late. I had to work today, but it wasnt to bad. I worked the register, so i pretty much just sat around. I have to work tomorow 5 to close. I really hate circuit city.

I really have the urge to play guitar. Ive written some pretty cool stuff lately and i want to record, but i know when i pick up the guitar ill lose my motivation and get all lazy and shit. One of these days, ill actually have something worth while to play.

I cant wait for spring break, so i can see laura, richie and ryan. I miss those guys so much.

Alabama hasnt grown on me, and im glad. I dont really like the way of life here. Im a "yankee" .... i know, its gay...but i like being from the north.

well, i better get to sleep, i have to wake up early tomorow.

jrizzle @ 2005-02-05T03:44:00

2005-02-05T09:44:10Z

You scored as Punk and Pop Punk.. Punk and Pop Punk.

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